Sharing

I haven't blogged on Patrick leaving. Its hard and a stressful time. I haven't taken the time to sit down and express myself. I will eventually when I am ready to discuss everything. Once the stress off buying the house calms down. But I felt compelled to sit down and blog about what was said to me today. I have always been a sensitive and and emotional person. Wearing my heart on my sleeve. Sometimes I hate that because I get hurt a lot but I wouldn't change it for the world because it is me. And I am realizing this with the help of a Pastor. He says what he loves about me is the way I show I am "broken" and that is how God is using me. Cause I can relate to people. They can come to me when they are hurt and need prayers and know that I can relate to them. He told me, he would rather go to someone who shows how they feel then someone who always seems like they have it together. And with this I started to accept myself. If I am hurt, I am going to show it, If I am having a bad day I'm going to tell you and if I need to cry- I can't hold back the tears. AND THAT'S OKAY because God can use that to let other people come to me and we can relate- cry and pray together. I don't want to change and I am no longer going to apologize for being sensitive or wearing my heart on my sleeve. God accepts me- I accept me and if someone else can't then that's okay too. But I'm me and that's all I want to me.

Project 365

from the day hubby leaves until he comes back I'll be doing this. I will be using an actual photoblog though. I will keep this blog for my own personal blogging. feelings, updates on life and the deployment.  find my photoblog starting in 2 weeks at http://www.photoblog.com/sweetpea721/

Goals while hubby is gone

Paint living room
paint bathroom
tone up legs/arms
plant garden on side
plant flower beds
get new couch and love seat
get bigger/new table
hang pics up stairwell
scrapbook more



will add more as I think of them

my life as an army life

As an army wife I've learned to be more independent then ever. I'm never comfortable in the house alone with repairmen but with husbands gone months at a time. I've learned how to hang pictures, unclog toilets, fix broken things, put shelves together. Pretty much what other wives leaves for husbands. Ask any military and she'll tell you its nothing. Its a way of life to deal with the wifey and hubby duties. Whether its around the house, raising kids, its just what we do. There's days I wish he could lift something heavy and move it but I tell myself he leaves soon so I gotta get used to doing everything. So I carried the drawers to the garage or moved the heavy box or object. Don't think I'm complaining. Though in a way I am. I'm just realizing how different my life is then a 9-5 working marriage. I stay home and cherish every moment with my husband, not knowing when he'll be gone again. I never take a minute for granted. I clean house, cook, bake and then when he's gone I do everything and most the time he's gone more then here between trainings and deployment, etc. Its a difficult life; military life. But I wouldn't change it for the world. But sometimes the tears are just overwhelming. Saying goodbye, not knowing when or IF you'll see him again. If the goodbye kiss you give and receive will be the last one. You start thinking about everything you did and said leading up to the goodbye. Was I too bitchy? Did our last fight hurt him? Did I say I love you enough? Will he still love me when he gets home? How can I get through this?! The questions we don't know how to answer. I hate when I'm called strong because I'm not. I'm emotional. I start stupid fight. I snap at him for no reason. But I love him so much I don't want to let him go. I don't want to go 6 months without seeing him and then only getting 2 weeks before another 6 months pass. I just want to wake up every morning beside him and get that before you brush your teeth kiss that only a wife and husband ever really understand. I hate going days with out hearing from the one I love most. I hate spending days worrying. But I've learned other wives become your family. You can call and cry, vent and they understand. It does make things a little more bearable. But the best part of him being gone, is the homecoming. when you run into his arms and hug, kiss and cry. Then you become newly weds again. Learning each others routines and etc. Life is hard but there's always a happy ending. Keep friends and family close. Keep your faith and keep busy. Send letters, emails of your days. Just pray every night and every morning. Make everyday a day you can share with hubby. Things are never so hard alone. Keep God in your life and you'll make it. Keep your love strong!!!

Make up your mind already!

That's what I'm telling myself. lol I got accepted for financial aid for real estate school even went down to the school in Clarksville and picked up my paperwork. Then I discovered the fees my financial will not cover which is close to another $700. For example pay city of Clarksville $500! I was unsure I'd be good at this job. I was worried its what I wanted to do, if I'd get the math part. And the with the unstable economy there is no way I can pay out that money. Plus the real estate offices charge fees. So I could go 6 months without selling houses and still have to pay out my pocket! I just can't do that in the economy!!  It scares me to death!! So I prayed. I listened to my heart and God led me to teaching. I have been wanting to and requested information a few months ago. If only I listened to the signs he was showing me. Now I'm waiting for the financial aid to come back through for my career plan in Teacher's Aid. I'm hoping to work as an aide in a Special Ed classroom. In the meantime I have an interview for sub teaching. I believe God has a path for us all; we just need to stop and find it. We may take a few wrong turns but we'll find it. The volunteer work I do all involves kids. I love the work I do there so why didn't just follow my heart and go with teaching forever ago? With real estate I was stressed. With teaching I'm relieved. Its kind of a weird feeling. Like I finally found my way. So teaching aid through Penn Foster is the plan!

YES!

I want to thank my parents for dragging me through houses being built as a kid. I thank them for giving me the dream of real estate just took 28 years to realize. All my funding through the army has been approved! They are paying for all my classes and license and continuing education!!!!!!!!!! I am so excited!!!!!!

few wrong paths...

may lead to the right one!!! well at least for me=) I made the descion and took the huge step to apply for the money the army will give me for school to go to real estate school!!!!!!!!!!!! I know I've tried a few things that didn't work out and I've been so unhappy about where I am in my life. Back in Korea I started thinking about real estate and even contacted some schools when I got home as well as talking to a few real estate people. Well finally I was able to get a school here in Clarksville and the MyCaa program will cover it! So I just summited to courses and have to wait for approval! I'm crossing my fingers! I'm so flippin' excited. A Carrer!!!!!! No more job hunting. I really think this is where and what I want to do!!!

Korean memories

Patrick and I stopped at this Korean store we are always driving past. And wow it was like walking down memory lane. Alot of the same brands that we saw in Korea was at this little Korean store in KY.  we picked up some hot mustard, kimishi's and yaki mandu. which we came home and tasted everything. we plan to go back on payday and get some soybean paste, more yaki and the korean coffee. Patrick was so excited to see that. They even had the yogurt you could get over there. The yaki was right on one of my korean fave restraunts. Most of the prices were decent. Only a couple more dollars then there. Excited to go back and get some more stuff! I guess I miss Korean food more then I realized. lol=)

Happy New Year!!!

Patrick and I enjoyed ours. It was bittersweet since I have what this year holds which is hubby's deployment (3rd). He won't be here next New years so I got a little upset. Then the next day he packed his c-bag so I was little upset over that too. I hate starting the new year like this=(

we had our traditional New Years dinner of smoked sausage and sauerkraut for luck in the new year!

Some resolutions:

• workout more

• keep eating healthy

• find a job

• keep working on my marriage

• send cookies at least once a month to hubby and soldiers

• keep being a good wife and step mother

I'm sure there's more I'll add but that's on my mind for right now.

The end of 2009

I can't believe how fast this year has gone by!!!! Overall its been a good year I think. I got to come home and be in the states! I got a new puppy (now a year old), a new kitten (7 months old, guessing), and my favorite a beautiful new niece named Macy Rae! Hubby and I struggled in our marriage and overcame and better then ever! I found an awesome church and found my Christianity and great group of friends and took the step to be baptized!

Since coming home I have been slacking on blogging cause nothing exciting really happens unless I blog about my dogs...haha! But with the upcoming year comes yet another deployment! So I will be blogging alot more to help me get through all the mix of feelings.

Hope everyone brings in the new year safe and sound! Hubby and I are staying home with our wii playing games and bring it together quietly watching the ball drop. Couldn't ask for a better NYE!

Happy New Year's Eve!!!

Prayers

When someone in my family is sick I feel like my whole world is crashing down. Yesterday I found out my 6 month niece, Macy was in the hospital. She has swine flu and pneumonia. My entire family is being treated for swine flu as a preventive measure. I want to be home with them but I can't right now. And I couldn't see Macy because she's in isolation type room.  No one but my sister and brother in law can be in there and they can't leave without masks.  I been asking everyone I know at my church to pray.  All my friends are praying as well. When I talked to my sister on the phone I could hear poor Macy in the background coughing.  My heart is breaking knowing my family is going through this.  I hope they know I am there in thought and prayers.

On the brighter side: My dad called me with an update last night and I was crying while I talked to him cause I really wanted to be home with them and it kills me little Macy is sick.  Anyways Patrick knows how bad I want to be home and he said he couldn't risk me going home and getting sick. He said my immune system is too bad and I'd probaly die within one day and he couldn't stand to loose me.  Aww I love him!

5 year goal

In 5 years I want to be able to run a half marathon/5k. I'm starting training when he deploys.

Leigh Ann's Xmas Wish List

Photo printer (for scrapbooking)
snuggie in pink
silver cross necklace
Wii Resort
Clothing size 10 or L
I love anything from Body Central (nothing skin tight, I like loose fitting, size L)(http://www.bodyc.com/)

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Exciting new today...

As some of you may know, I have found a church here and its changed my life.  I am very involved attending every Sunday morning, volunteering with the church and even attending a weekly bible study.  Now after 27 years I  am going to be baptised!!  Its scheduled for Oct. 25th. I have opened my heart to Jesus and and am a Follower of Jesus Christ so this is the final step into the Christian life.  I really cannot say how excited I am for this!  I asked a friend whom I am becoming close to, Ashley, to go with me so I will have pictures of the event. This church has changed me and my life and I am so excited to do this with Grace Community Church!!

Toture Session

Or otherwise known as physical therapy for my ankle. I know I have to do and I want it to get better. I wish I knew what I even did to it to make it hurt like it does. I guess 2 injuries in a little over a year really messes ya up. But my physical therapist is nice and he doesn't push you when something hurts. He watches your face and asks alot how you're doing. He's working on my whole legs. Well both to build up muscles. I told him I hate him while working my butt muscles. Of course he just laughs. But I'm not going to complain. Its a free work out. I'm going to have stronger legs. I just need to work on my arms at home or gym. When my ankle gets all the way better plan to start back up walking Angel (Aspen refuses) and running on the epliptical. I wish I could find a gym buddy. Until then I'm going physical therapy twice a week. Toture me....but I'm going to get better and normal again!

Hubby turned 33 this week!

I planned a big dinner for Patrick on his actual bday just for him and I. I made steak, baked potatoes, fresh corn, deviled eggs and garlic cheese biscuits.

He loved it. I cooked in a special outfit for him! Then I had made him a chocolate birthday cake!

The night couldn't have went more perfect. Everything turned out Great! I decorated the house with streamers and everything!!

Then on saturday I hosted a bbq for him. We had a few friends over and our neighbors. It was a good time. Patrick's bday present still hasn't came in yet:( A friend of mine got it in Germany for him. I cannot wait for it to come in. Should be here next week!

Happy Birthday to my old man!!

Surprise Visit

Patrick and I was sitting around the house putting off dinner on Wed when my phone rings and it's his step mother. I pass the phone on to him and it turns out his biological father who he hasn't talked too or had any contact with in about 10 years was driving a truck and was in the area and wanted to see him. So we went to the piolt to meet him. It was awkward at first but they caught up and it was nice meeting Patrick's father. Its funny how those things work out. We told him anytime he was in the area to give us a call. Patrick was nervous to see him wasn't sure what to expect and it was a BIG surprise. I was even nervous cause we been together almost 6 years and I never met the man! But it turned out to be a nice visit. Interesting that's for sure.

First picture in I don't know how many years!

New Hobby...

I have a friend here that has been offering for a while now for me (and Patrick) to come out to her house and ride her horses. We kept talking about going but never got around to it. Finally this weekend I was like I want to go! And checked with my friend to make sure it was okay with her that we came out. So sunday after church I went to ride my first horse! And I have to say I'm quite hooked! I was nervous at first knowing I'm klutzy and I have a walking cast on. I checked with her and she thought as long as Patrick was there to help me on and off I should be okay. And I have to say it didn't hurt at all cause just plodding around on Chant was very smooth. I wasn't bounced around alot or jolted at all. It was an amazing afternoon. It took about 5 minutes for me to relax and then I enjoyed. It was so relaxing and so much fun. He was an awesome horse. Not only beautiful but seemed to know I was a newbie at riding. I picked up on giving a few directions and eventually Ann didn't have to lead the horse I got to just plod around by myself. It was so fun watching her warm him up, see the horses play, watch the interaction between human and horse. I will be going back as soon as I can! She said when he deploys I can spend all my time out there and she will have me a proficient rider. I cannot wait to get to do it again. It feels so awesome to ride! Patrick got the chance to ride too. He hadn't since he was kid. It was a perfect day with temps in the 70s and as well as overcast. I have found a new hobby for sure!

My next piercing....

Thanks to my friend Sham for getting it done and giving me the idea...I cannot wait!

Oh this isn't her...just a random pic I found online of what I wanted....

Awesome Weekend

So it was the last weekend for the girls to be here:(. I wanted everything to be perfect! My best friend, the girls Aunt Kimberly, brought her to kids down and spent fri-sun with us. We threw a bbq saturday night for the girls. We had our friends that had been around the girls come. They had a blast. They were jumping on the trampoline, playing badminton, wrestling match, guitar hero. I made dirt cake which they ate the crap out of. Then sunday we missed church but we were all up late and Kimberly forgot her bag that had church clothes in it but after waking up late and all that it ended up working out. We went to get our first ever family portrait where Kimberly did all our hair. She even did my makeup for me. I found a dress at Deb's for $7 that I fell in love with and then shoes at Rue 21 for $4.99. The photos turned out so pretty. I was so excited. The girls wore their church dresses which are new and they love them. They had never had pictures other then school. So Triel was nervous and Jillian excited. And after the pictures we went out to Zaxby's for lunch. We played a little family badminton and watched a movie after Kimberly and her family left. I couldn't be happier with how everything went and turned out. It was a weekend to remember that's for sure! I know Jillian is hoarse from screaming and playing while wrestling. We had lots of laughs and lots of fun!!

My goals- Article on Six Things to do Everyday

1. Make the BedTidiness begets tidiness. A crisply made bed makes the whole room seem more orderly, which makes it less likely that you'll let other things -- such as clothes and papers -- pile up around it.
2. Manage ClutterWhenever you leave a room, take a quick look around for anything that isn't where it should be. Pick it up and put it where it belongs. Insist that everyone in the household do the same.
3. Sort the MailTake a few minutes to open, read, and sort mail as soon as you bring it inside. Keep a trash bin near your sorting area for junk mail. Drop other mail into one of four in-boxes: personal correspondence, bills, catalogs, and filing.
4. Clean as You CookInstead of filling the sink with pots and dishes, wash them or put them in the dishwasher as you prepare a meal.
5. Wipe Up Spills While They're FreshWhether it's tomato sauce on the cooktop or makeup on the bathroom counter, almost anything is faster and easier to remove if you attend to it immediately.
6. Sweep the Kitchen FloorEvery evening once you've finished washing up after dinner, sweep the floor. This will keep tough-to-clean dirt and grime from building up, which will make the weekly mopping much quicker.

Life in general

We're enjoying the summer with the girls. We just celebrated Jillian's 10th birthday. I cannot believe she is 10!!! It seems like just yesterday I met a 4 year old bouncy little girl. Oh how my heart is filled with love for these two little girls. They are growing so big right in front of my eyes. Its crazy how fast they grow! We bought them bikes this year. Brand new mountain bikes. They were thrilled with thier presents. So Patrick fixed my intertube on my bike and we spent today after church riding a little with the girls. They loved it. They had a good birthday. We tried to make it very special since we've missed the last few. They told my parents it was the best ever. Which really made me happy. Cause I have had to suffer through my back pain in order to do some things. I cried through about half Transformers 2 cause of my back and Patrick was ready to take me to the ER. Then riding bikes is rough. But they make it worth the pain. I just wish it would get better.

We found a church that I am really happy with. The girls enjoy it very much. I decided to volunteer for the church. One I felt a calling for the program they call Grace Acres and 2 I'm trying to go back to school for primary education with a special in special ed so it would look good on resumes to have the volunteer. And everyone knows I have a soft spot for little kids. I just love babysitting. This program is a bible study for infant -4 years old.

Patrick and I are doing great. We are loving having the girls. We are attached at the hip always together watching TV, movies or outside with the girls. We love the family time! We have a great time. They have been all helping out cause of my back. They make me lay down when I'm up and around and limping around. Patrick has pitched in to help out with dinners or whatever I need. I'm so grateful for such an awesome family. And friends too helping out.

I wish I knew what made my nerve irriated so I could avoid it. But since being on the steriods I am slowly noticing my back feeling better. So hopefullly just a little bit longer and I'll be back on my feet. Laying around is killing me. I barely have an appetite. I'm use to be up going and going.

Well I've been slacking on updating here lately but I'm going to work on blogging more. But thats enough for now...Until next time.....

Not ready...

My statuses on myspace, facebook and messengers have been upset and sad. I just haven't been ready to talk about it. VERY few friends know about it. And most of the ones that do know have been super supportive and at my side anytime I need it. I have learned my true friends through this. I have had friends emailing me and leaving comments checking on me. Thanks so much for that. I'm sorry if I haven't responded. Remember they do mean alot to me and I'll find time to respond. When I''m ready to come out and talk I'll let everyone know. But thank you for being here during my rocky times.

Happy Father's Day...

To my wonderful husband. I love you so much. We don't have any kids together but when we do I know you'll be the greatest daddy there is. You are so wonderful with your kids! And our furbabies. You are my world and I love you so much! Happy Father's Day Baby!

And to all the other Father's out there...Have a great day! Happy Father's day!

Easter

I had such a nice Easter. I was invited to dinner with the little boy I babysit and all his family. It was so nice be surrounded by friendly faces and good food since I would otherwise spent the holiday alone. Ethan was such a cutie pie with the eggs. I got to feed him his easter dinner of green beans and sweet potatoes. It was nice to watching him crawl around on the grass with the eggs. It was such a blessed holiday!

Next and Last...

Leaving on a jet plane....Oh yea baby!!!

My next blog with be an update from the STATES!!! So this is my last blog to ever write in Korea.

We're being picked up by the taxi between 4a-4:30a. We have a layover in Tokyo and then go through customs and finally land in Grand Rapids MI at 4:24p on friday Feb 6th!

We'll stay with his mom, visiting all his family until the 12th and then we leave to go see his kiddos the 12th-15th. (Little does he know I have a surprise for the 11th;))

And finally we see my family from the 16th-22nd. (If you wanna see me, call the cell)

And then we go and find a house at Campbell the 22nd. Yay!! (Can't wait to see old friends)

Much love to all and update when I have net again!

I love him...

We were gathering stuff to mail back to the states and I was going through a little bit of paperwork on the dresser and there among it was a pamphlet from Jag for adoption. I teared up. It touched me he took the the time to grab it. He knows the doctors haven't given me good odds of having kids from having 2 different female disorders. And adoption is the option I want to take rather then be hurt and disappointed over and over trying to conceive. It touches me he knows how important it is to me to stop and grab a little pamphlet like that. I love him so much sometimes!

Last weekend in Korea...

We decided to invite friends and go out to the bars in Korea. It was such a blast. 2 girlfriends and a couple we knew came out. Everyone but 1 was drinking and everyone was having such a great time. I was so glad for everyone who came out. I felt loved thats for sure!! Patrick ordered our first and last soju bowl. The amount of pics took last night was crazy. It was probably my best night out in years!!! I am lucky for the friends I have made here.

New Coat...

I got my new coat made and got to pick it up this weekend. I LOVE it. Its so pretty and warm. Probably my favorite jacket I've owned. Patrick loves to show it off, he's proud of the Valentine's day present. I've already got lots of compliements as well. Here is pics as promised. It's suade. I bought a matching cream hat and gloves to go with it!

Snow day!

For the first time in 2 years living here in South Korea we got a "big snow" Between 4-6 inches of it! Of course this being Angel's first real snow, I threw on Patrick's hand me down thermals and took her out to play and for pictures. She has a blast! She would just run and run through the snow. Then she'd bury her head in the snow and fling her head up making snow go everywhere. I threw a couple snowballs at her and she'd look around like what the hell. It was a fun experience. I can't wait to see her in the deep snow in MI! Here is a few of my fave of the 30 so pictures I took.

Please Pray

For both Patrick's grandparents. Grandpa has a fast moving prostate cancer and will not be able to afford the $1000 pill if the insurance will not cover it and Grandma is in poor health and relies on grandpa for everything right now. They are 87 and 88. Please pray for them.

Fun Weekend...

This weekend has been a blast. Friday we had Patrick's farewell. Which was nice. He was presented a plaque from the company. Then that night we went out last minute to have drinks with a friend of ours. Everyone we knew was out. The bar got way crowded but we found a nice quiet one and we all goofed off for a while. It was such a blast. Then Saturday we had our friend over for dinner and played Wii. It was relaxing good time. And then Sunday the 3 of us went shopping in Osan. Patrick found some really nice luggage for himself and bought me a purse and wallet. Him and our friend ate at McDonalds. We got the girls a couple gifts to take home. He picked out a pretty gold heart necklace for each of them and I got them doggy slippers. I fell in love with this beautiful jacket and after asking the price they offered to make me a custom jacket (suede and thick) for $85! Patrick is taking me back next pay day and having me one made for Valentine's Day. I am super excited. Its probably the prettiest coat I'll ever own. And so neat to have it made for me. Great leaving Korea present!! Today I have to go to a FRG farewell for me and a couple other spouses. And then I am making meatloaf muffins, mashed potatoes and steamed broccoli for dinner. We invited our friend once again, so we wouldn't have too many leftovers. Then I plan to be lazy for the day!! and Tomorrow is the last day for Patrick's 4 day so I think we're going to have to clean up the house and start some sorting and such since time is just ticking by very quick. Before we know it the movers will be here!

Love is Blind...

That is until its put right under your nose...lol. So for my 100 pound weight loss triumph, a good friend of mine sent me a before and after picture card. It was quite neat and thoughtful. So my husband, bless it heart, sees it and goes

"You were that big!"

I'm like thanks hun. I guess love is blind.

He's like I guess so!

Well I'm not offended that's for certain. He's been my biggest support and looking at the before and after is shocking. I know he didn't mean harm from it. It warms my heart that while at my biggest he didn't seem to notice. Which is wonderful feeling. And I know he loves me just as much then as now. And just having the pictures side really showed the changes for him.

Love is blind.

6 month Surgery Check up

So I went to have my 6 month check-up today. Everything was looking good. And right on track where I should be. I've lost 114 pounds. The doctor himself was even impressed and said keep up the good work. He's warned me I may not loose alot more and hit a plateau here soon. He wants me to make sure I do at least an hour cardio a day. I talked to him about me being tired all the time and he said that wasn't uncommon. Usually around 12 months the throwing up and tiredness will start going away. And around 12 months my weight should start stabilize. Overall it was a good appt. In 3 months I have to go to a dr in Clarksville. A dr Steele was recommended and get some blood work done as well. I am just so happy about my weight loss. I've worked really hard on my diet and stuff and to be complimented by doctor made my day. And even better Patrick was there to hear it!

Korea pizza...

So Patrick decided tonight he wanted pizza...I can eat a few bites if I pat the grease off and not in the mood to cook I agreed. He wanted to try a Super Deluxe instead of our regular combination pizza and he called up and asked what came on it and to the best of his interpreting it sounded good, so I said go for it. It got here and looked good and I pulled me out a small piece and all my toppings fell off and we discovered what was exactly on the pizza:

Ham

hamburger

olives

onions

mushrooms

green peppers

Walnuts

And finally rasins!

(I have a major adversion to raisins from my childhood of finding magots in a box I was eating. So Patrick, picked them all off for me)

On the brighter side it wasn't that greasy. I barely got any on the napkin. But the taste...well it was different. Not really that good. Neither of us enjoyed it like we do the como. And its a rare "treat" for me cause I shouldn't eat pizza and always feel guilty! So what a disapointment!

Only in Korea would you get a pizza with those ingredients. And they really don't go together so I doubt Papa John's will be marketing that pizza any time soon!

Resolutions

Happy New Year!! Hopefully everyone had a great holiday and ate thier cabbage for luck! Hubby and I had a lazy New Years Eve. We ordered take out and watched movie and played Wii bowling and then watched the Korean countdown which was amusing. The music was crazy and they ring this huge gong thingy at midnight. New Years was lazy spent around the house. I fixed sausage and saurkraut and we napped, watched movie and played more Wii bowling. It was the prefect way to bring in the New Year!

So I guess I should make a few resolutions since that's the tradition. After thinking about it I came up with a few:

1. Excersice more

2. Keep up with my weight loss goals

3. Be better wife

4. Bake more

I think thats a good start for now. Hope everyone has a wonderful new year!

Excited!

Patrick went and got my plane ticket today and reserved Angel a spot as well. I can't believe we have about a month and week left in Korea and we get to come home. HOME!!!! What a wonderful word that is. I appreciate so much more in the states now then EVER before. My wonderful family, the friends that have stood by me these two years, little things like understanding the language, driving and WAL-MART!! The best news was it only cost us $640 and we were expecting about double that. Just knowing I have that ticket home is an awesome feeling! I am on a great high I doubt will go away until I come home. I just want to cry cause I am finally coming home. I have missed everyone so freaking much! My niece is 2 years older and doesn't even know her own aunt, even though I spoil her crazy through the mail. My cousin has twins I've never met. You don't think you'll miss that much in 2 years but you really do. Hell I've changed. I've grown older, wiser. I've lost (so far) 110 pounds! I am more confident and I am sure my personality has changed some too. Its going to be awesome to come home and see my family and let them see the new and improved me! I just don't know how to catch up 2 years in the few days we get to see everyone though:( But we'll be home for a while, no chance we want to travel overseas for a while if we can help it. So we can slowly catch up! I just can't wait. 38 days and I will be in the states again!!!

Just another day...

So I turned 27 yesterday. And it was like any other day. It sucked. I was still sick still. A week now. Patrick didn't get home until after 12:30 from 1st up and I just ended up wanting to take a nap. Then we woke up and he went and got us some movies. And we cuddled up and watched a movie and then played around on my Wii. It wasn't sucky but it wasn't great. We are going to go to dinner next weekend when I am feeling better and celebrate later. At least by the day going by the way it did, I don't feel older!

Meet the newest....

Member of our family....

Aspen Noel!

She will join the family when we get to Campbell and settled in. (End of Feb)

New puppy

For Christmas Patrick's cousins were surprised with a litter of husky puppies. We were offered one if we want it when we come home. I am of course all for his. I think having Angel a friend will be wonderful. Patrick wants to come home tomorrow and talk about it. But I am hoping he says yes. I already have her picked out. And a name. So hopefully he agress. Crossing fingers!

Christmas

was okay. I was of course sick! Patrick was a big help getting everything done though. 2 people didn't call or show up for dinner but it still turned out okay. Patrick was home and not on duty and that's all that matters. Dinner was great. The company was nice. We ate then played UNO. I just really felt like crap the whole day and 2 days later feel just as bad. I cannot wait for this cold to pass. Patrick got my Wii out of layaway for me. He surprised me with an extra controller and nunchuck. Angel was amusing with her gifts. She didn't care about the gifts just ripping all the paper off. She was cute and spoiled. She got a stocking full of goodies. So she's been a happy dog running around. I am glad Christmas is over and that next year I can be with family.

Ski trip

First.....OUCH! 2nd I couldn't hate skit lifts more! We decided on snowboarding cause neither of us had ever done it. But I was a mess at it. At first I did really well. Then I just fell apart. I got sore, I'd go too fast and get scared and evenually I gave up. I fell on my hip twice and it was pretty sore. You can't touch it today and I didn't want to risk injuring myself too bad. I am sore from my neck to my toes. And sick! Patrick got the hang of it and I think he had a good time even though I ended up hanging out inside a little. I want to try again when I am able to get some muscles back from loosing the weight and do not have a cold. I am disapointed in myself for giving up. I am mad and wish I could go back and not give up when Patrick tried helping. I got scared going fast. It was a challenge I couldn't pick up and I should have kept trying. But there's always next time. And he does want to go again. But ski this time cause he knows how, and wants to take the time to teach me how. Slowly. He has it already planned out in his head. I am hopping I will pick that up faster and easier since he knows how. I love him for wanting to teach me. I am hoping I can learn and we have something to do together like this. It would be fun, planning ski trips together every so often. But overall I did have a good time. It was a learning experience and a challenge.

Nice weekend!

After hardly seeing my husband for weeks now, we had a wonderful 3 day wekeend together. It was so nice! Friday we went shopping for stuff for the party and he bought me my Wii and we straightened up the house. I made us spaghetti. Then that evening I went to the movies to see Four Christmases with some girls and then home to curl on the couch and watch Grey's Anatomy together. Then more party stuff on saturday and Grey's when we could fit it in. The party was a great turn out. I think everyone had fun. I know Patrick and I did. He ran his mouth the whole time=) I got an awesome lotion set out of the greedy santa. Then Sunday we were lazy all day. Took a nap, watched Grey's all day and did nothing. I didn't even change out of Pjs. It was sooooooooooooo nice. I wish we could be lucky enough to have weekends like that every weekend. We got lots of quality time and had fun. Now we have our ski trip on tues and then Christmas dinner coming up. Then before we know it we'll be on a plane home.

SWEET!

We walk into the PX and for the first time EVER they have Wii. They never have Wii and I been wanting one for a long long time. Patrick points it out and I am like aww. And Patrick goes you really want it don't you? I am like yea. He's like do they do layaway. I am like yeah. So he puts it in the cart. Goes to the game picks out 2 Sims games for me. And says its your Christmas and birthday. I am so freaking excited! I cannot wait until we pick it up! This is the best xmas/bday ever! I cannot wait to get Wii fit but its 89.99 and they don't sell it here. But anyways I am excited!

Woo hoo!

I got on the scale last night and I've lost....

100 pounds!!!

Which was a goal of mine to do before Christmas and I did it! I am so excited!

So today I went to get our mail at the mail room and I swear this guy was checking me out. I had my hair all wavy and pulled up and no makeup but man I felt so good! And some guy was emailing me on myspace I suppose to hit on me. This never happens to me! I am feeling so much more confident and good about myself.

Hubby is so so supportive and great! He came home after long 9 days (actually came home 2 days early) and just kept looking at me and said my face was like night and day. And he took me straight to bed! TMI! But even my husband is enjoying the weight loss. He has always loved me but I think he's more attracted to me then ever. And I'm ok with that. I have more confidence and feel better about myself. I was very unhappy before. So of course I would expect him to be more attracted cause I feel more attractive.

All in all I am just very happy right now!

What happened?

In college I was a writer. My 2 writing professors sung me praise. Said I was really going somewhere with my writing. I loved writing poetry and stories. They were always flowing through my head. I'd wake up at 3 am with a poem and write it down. Its been a few years now since i've wrote. Its like all the words that went through my head are gone. Of course I've heard of writers block but this has been years. I miss it. You think of everything I been through I'd have plenty to write about yet I can't or don't. I wish I knew what happened to my words.....

Newest weighloss Pics

So its been 5 months and I've lost 95 pounds. I am so happy with myself and my hard work. surgery or no surgery I've worked my butt off to drop off these pounds. Everything is going wonderful. There's still a few things that make me sick but for the most part its all been good. I am loving the confidence I feel, the more active I am. Everything is all around just great! I'm a new person inside and out.

Getting closer...

The countdown is getting closer to coming home. 59 days to go. Its hard to believe and time is flying by. Patrick's gone alot so I am trying everything I can do keep myself busy. Friday night I went to another wife's house with Angel for dinner and playdate which was so much fun. I of course talked to poor woman's leg off and came hom embarrssed that I did talk so much! Then our good friend and I went out on saturday and I had the most fun! We went to dinner and then bowling and then we had a few drinks in the ville. I love gin and tonic! It was my first time since surgery to even attempt anything and I took it really slow and easy. It was such a great time and made the weekend go by pretty quick. Sunday I just cleaned which takes up alot of time. I think sometime this week I am going to go through my clothes again. The sweaters I kept from the last time are now swimming in.

We have alot of stuff coming up to make the time go by fast until we come home. Dec 20th I am throwing a greedy santa party. Dec 23rd we go skiiing, Then Christmas, then my birthday where I am going to the bars with a couple friends, then New Years. Then Patrick starts clearing, our house will be packed up and then before we know it we will be on our way home! I can't wait! Time is just flying by!

And just a shout out to my sister who's birthday is today. Happy Birthday Sis!

Life Lately...

Things have been a little crazy. Patrick had to leave the week before Thanksgiving and of course I was heartbroken. He had just been gone 2 weeks prior. I should be used to it but I was really wanting thanksgiving with him. Well then they came back and said they'll be coming back wed. Yay but I don't count on it. So I planned thanksgiving late. Dinner at 7pm. And good thing too cause he didn't get home until 4pm on thanksgiving dinner.

Thanksgiving we had some friends over. 2 of our Korean realtors, a guy from the unit and a wife from the unit and her friend since her husband was gone. It was an interesting dinner. The Koreans had never had a Thanksgiving meal. They would tell me their favorites. 1 was green bean casserole, the other thought turkey was more tender then chicken. They both had 2nds and I believe tried a little of everything. I know they both loved my candied yams.

The next night we had the guy from the unit over plus another one and heated all the leftovers up and had another feast. Then played spades. It was overall a wonderful thanksgiving even though hubby almost didn't make it!

We've had a lovely weekend together. I lost more weight making the total 93 and we were excited about that cause I am so close to loosing 100 pounds which was my christmas present to myself. Saturday and Sunday we relaxed and watched seasons of Grey's Anatomy which I am addicted too and he's only recently got into. Saturday we ordered take out and Sunday hubby cooked for me which was nice.

The sad news is he's leaving again thursday for 10 days. It just feels like I barely get to see him these days. I know it could be worse but it could be better too. I am getting into a major slump/depression. It sucks. Last week I barely even wanted to eat. I try not to whine but its just getting a little old. At least they are saying he can have wed off to be with me before he leaves again. I'd like to say I can make it 2 months and then we're in the states and we'll be better but he goes straight to bnoc. So we have 3 weeks together on leave and then he heads to VA for 3 and half months. There might be a few weekends I can see him but I don't know how much. So If I can get through until middle june barely seeing him he has 3 more weeks leave and then we can be at Campbell together. It seems so freaking far away.

We are going skiing on Dec 23rd. His unit can't screw him out of this since its a unit trip and we already payed our money so that's a good thing. I just really hope he has Christmas off. Thanksgiving was so stressful. I didn't think he'd make it back and I spent all morning crying. I just want a nice quiet Christmas with no stress together.

Well I guess thats about all of late. I am sure there's more I was going to say but I have a brain fart!

Christmas pictures....

So Patrick and I went to a friends house and had a few pictures taken in front of her tree (7ft compared to our 4ft) for our Christmas card this year. I am so excited and they turned out great. I can't wait to get them and send them off. Its the first year we have done this. Its going to be nice for everyone to get a good picture of the 2 of us. I will not tell which one or ones are on the card but here are a few that we took.

Its love!

Saturday my hubby surprised me and brought home a single pink rose. My favorite color of rose ever. And it has to be the prettiest rose I've ever seen. It was that not quite open and not quite closed. Ever time I look at it, I am just know how lucky I am for the greatest husband.

Christmas Tree

I got my beautiful Christmas tree up and decorated and even got Christmas presents wrapped underneath. I think its just beautiful and love starring at it!!! Ok so I am a little behind posting pics cause its been up like a week now! hehe

Proud Aunt!

So my sister went for her ultra sound today. The baby was being very coperative and they got a few good pictures. And its a....



GIRL!!!

I knew all along, just a feeling. No names picked out but she does like one of my suggestions of Keeley. I am crossing my fingers for that name since I cannot be there for any of the pregnancy. But I will be there for the birth as long as she doesn't pop out before the 4 hours I need to get home!!!

Weightloss

I am doing good with my weightloss. I walk 20 minutes twice a day. Hoping to get up to 3 times a day. So far I've lost 78 pounds. I am almost under 200 which is a mini goal and almost 20 pounds from loosing 100 by Christmas. I'm going to have to work really hard to reach it. I've been sick for like a week now so its really made it hard to wanna get out and walk or clean or anything but I am managing just more slowly I guess. Its just a cold but the cough is causing me so much trouble with even eating. I can't seem to hold things down. Its frustrating. Anyways I am feeling great, healthy, walking more and getting out more. This weightloss is a great thing for me.